glasssnail's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Rest In Peace my Blind Squirrel Today is a sad day. The poor squirrel died today. This afternoon. I was trying to save it. I did all I could but this poor little baby just wouldn't live. He was doing so well too... If only we had of known exactly what we needed to do to keep him alive.. I'll miss him, and I apologize sincerely for not being able to do more for him. Rest in peace. Starting from this morning, when I was feeding the squirrel and listening to Jesse talk to my dad about the government, I thought that squirrel was going to be alright. He seemed to be full of energy but he had a hard time breathing. But we took good care of him. Jesse and I had lots of fun today. We watched Blazing Saddles and I was being a bitch to him this morning, and then we had sex. Unprotected. Which was not good, because I told him that I didn't want to since I was so close to having my period that I could very well get pregnant. We did it anyway, even after I said no. But no, he didn't cum inside me, and that was good. He stopped and finished himself off. We started to watch Kill Bill and I was still horny since I never finished, and so I told him I wanted to do it again. We were pretty mad at each other so he said fine, pushed me down and started going at it before I even knew what was going on pretty much. It was hot, I've got to say, but unexpected, and we didn't stay mad at eachother for long. We got dressed afterwards and ate some pizza puff things and that was that pretty much... Jesse's Papa came and picked him up around 2 and he was off. It was strange because right after Jesse left, I started to pet the squirrel and was feeding him, and I noticed he was hurting pretty bad. He had been crying so much and it was either because he had some really bad disease that was killing him, or because his intestines weren't working for him. Gosh. All I know is that seeing that poor animal die while I was on a website trying to find something to help him got me so bad. I cried until my eyes burned, and it was hard to let him go. Connor wouldn't do CPR or anything, and when Dad finally came home I saw if he could help him, but it was just too late. That poor animal. I just hope that what Alex told me is true, and that he is going on to a second life, a better one. where things will be great for him since things were bad in this world. I had to go to play practice today, but it was hard since the poor squirrel had died only an hour before, so I was late, by maybe 30 minutes. I only stayed for only 20 just to learn the winged monkey dance. Then I was home again. Ava-Clare and I went to the store before the squirrel died and we got some fruit juice since I am starting my fast again... Of course, after the death, I ate until I felt like I was going to die from stomach and intestinal problems. I wish I didn't need the food to numb the pain but I did need it. Rest in peace my dear squirrely friend. 11:53 p.m. - June 29, 2004 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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